I knew it wouldn't last.

Midterms are coming, a few weeks from now.
I still have no idea of the topic I have to write about for my Science term paper.
And it has to be submitted this week.
I realized that we do not have Microsoft Powerpoint installed in our computer and we can't install one.
And the presentation's also dued this week, and I even volunteered to do it.

I wouldn't blog for awhile or so. But I won't be in hiatus. I just have to fix these things all at once.

>__< I am so dead.

Ephemeral Emotions.

I really have no idea why I'm feeling this way, considering that I'm all stressed out and colds not wanting to leave me again.

1. Got one mistake in our first modular exam in History.
2. Got one mistake in our second modular exam in History too.
3. Got two mistakes in our second modular exam in Earth Science.
4. Every modular makes me happy.
5. Not for English though. (Come on! Major mo yaaannn!!)
6. And not for Filipino too. (Gah. Shame on being a 100% pinay.)
7. Had a lovely 3 and a half hour break this morning, and a healthy dose of Bleach streamings from YouTube.
8. Kashi told me that I am talented.
9. And I asked her to enumerate the "talents" that she sees in me. "Basta, talented ka. There's more than meets the eye." I laughed and jokingly added, "Remember, you don't have a 20-20 vision anymore, Kash." XD
10. Finally, mom bought me the green pants I asked of her.
11. Talked... (secret! XD)
12. Played Mario Kart awhile ago. Ranked 2 and 7. (Saan ang chamba? XD)
13. Bati na kami ni kuya. XD
14. I'll be meeting all my high school friends tomorrow. I miss them so much.

I just feel... well, confused. Confused and happy, that is. Even if these things are shallow. XD

And yes, it rained today. Lowers my happiness level. I used to love the rain.

Everything's going perfect. I hope it will go on this way for a looonng time.

Coz, I hate pseudo-happiness.

Come on, I also deserve the real thing right?

Everyone does. ^_^

Bleach!

Bleach is Love.

Kurosaki Ichigo is Love.

It's official, I'm hooked. I like it more than Naruto. (Come on, more than Naruto himself, I mean! XD Sasuke and Itachi's really really hawt!). I've only started with the first few episodes and I just can't get enough of it. I even promised myself that I'll finish all 80+ episodes.

Bleach is all about the life of a 15 year old super hot bishounen (okay, so I'm exaggerating. XD) who has the ability to see and talk to souls and a Shinshinagi or a death god named Rukia Kuchiki who runs into him while chasing after a Hollow. Kuchiki was wounded and she needed to transfer her death god powers to Ichigo for them to continue cleansing and sending spirits to Soul Society. From there, the adventure begins. XD

It's love. Love. Love. ^_^

It has been running for quite some time. Waii. I'm too late for new anime. x_x

I'll cut this short, I still need to watch Bleach. =D

*Ichigo looks like Seiji-kun from Midori Days... Maybe it's the orangey-blonde hair. Or... am I wrong? XD*

Is listening too hard?!

(I'm sorry for the harsh words.)

I hate this day.

Why can't people learn how to listen for even just a few words?!

I hate him. I hate him so much. Yes, my brother's not stupid, but he is freakin unreasonable! And he's already 19 but with a mind of a three year old still throwing freakin tantrums for god's sake! He yells at me everytime I commit something wrong. I mean, to yell at me?! Is that even right?! Is that even f*ckin right?! I don't really care if he's already pissed off, I'd gladly accept everything he would say or all the things he said if I know I did something wrong. And I did not. I did not do anything wrong. And he won't even listen to my explanations.

Whenever he does that to me, I feel like I've done some grave sin.
If I yell back, what would that make me?

And she - she won't even listen to my side. She's so biased! I know it's wrong to just bash them both but she really is! Can't they even listen to me?! And treat us fair enough?! Whenever my brother would yell at me, she thinks that I really did something wrong. Whenever I yell back, she will think I'm disrespecting my brother again. And whenever I try to explain my side in the calmest, nicest way even if I'm really raging with anger deep down inside, she will think I'm answering back!

Is it too hard to listen to just a few words?!

I want to burst out, scream and just... let it all out. But if I do, she'll think I'm rebelling again. I mean, god! "Rebelling?!" Not even close!!

I don't understand them, even if I try to listen to their sides. And they won't understand me. And won't listen to my side. It's freakin unfair!!!

Maybe I'm wrong. At some point I accept that I am wrong. But can't they look into their mistakes too?! I'm sure this issue isn't one-sided.

And it is even too shallow for them to yell at me.

Auuuuugggggggghhhhh! I just want them to listen.

Listen. To me. For once.


(for Wookie's fans: This is the trailer of Arang. I searched it from YouTube. Wala lang. Picker-upper. Credits goes to the one who submitted the video, not to me. =D)

What can a farewell do...?

"She'd forgotten that because it's painful to have nothing but farewells..."

-Mayauru

I finished all episodes of Kimi ga Nozomu Eien yesterday, and well... I was quite shocked. XD Some scenes are a bit ecchi. Lol. I wasn't expecting that. Although, all in all, the story is good except the ending where Takayuki Narumi's choice was kind of depressing... x_x

Anyway, on to my real entry...

Somehow, I feel stupid... for some reason I don't even have to deal with... I don't know if I'm just being oversensitive or my single-mindedness or just plain stupidity... I don't even know which part of me should I blame... not anymore...

I told Chezka everything last night and she kept on telling me to forget about it... just forget about all of it. But the warmth... I feel like I'm just living by the shattered pieces of memories glimmering on its own. I know that the best thing that I can do is to wait... but that, I can't do anymore... Waiting doesn't assure you of something anyway...

I told myself that this is enough... I won't push myself farther than I could anymore... Maybe... maybe there are some prayers that can't really be granted even if you've spent a lot of time and effort for it... Maybe... giving it all up is the best of what I can do... I know I wouldn't be happy but somehow I'll move on...

I've hurt enough... but I wouldn't want to regret... not now, not anymore. Maybe there's a reason behind my decisions that I have yet to find out, but for now... I just have to live by it. If it won't kill me... then it will only make me stronger... that I hope...

I promised myself that I would no longer post something like this but I just have to let it all out for the last time. Maybe this is for the better, after all. Someone told me that I'm just making things complicated because I really don't want to give it all up... how can I... give up something that... special...? But then again, it's just me... there's no use holding on anymore... I should have listened long before... but I won't take my words back...

It is still a beautiful dream... I guess it's time for me to stop dreaming...

Royal Hotness!

Lee Dong Wook is sooo hawt!! XD

It's my first time to wait for the tv show Wowowee just because he's there! And when I saw him... Waaaaiiiiii! XD He looked so different from before, but still so hot! XD He has this really charming smile and sooo tall!! XD Waii! I hope he stays a bit longer! XD Everything about him is just so... perfect. *sighs* Well, except for his right hand that has bandage all over it. Still, I love him to death!

Video clip of Lee Dong Wook in Wowowee

Enough about Lee Dong Wook's total hotness! XD

Anyways, we had our second modular exam for P.E and Tae-bo Aerobics for two hours. Two freakin hours. I was so dead tired that I couldn't lift myself from the gym floor. It was hell, with no breaks. To add to my misery, the second mod exam result was even worse.

And it is not even my fault. Augh.

I don't really want to think about it anymore because I'll end up ranting and ranting. But for some reason, I can't help but feel bad because the week's getting worse. I totally failed our English mod exam just because of carelessness, I could have aced it if only I read the directions. x_x So okay it was my fault and it's a lesson learned... but, I still can't forgive myself about it. T_T

I just hope that everything will turn out right next week... x_x

And oh, I saw someone today. I'm not sure if that person is really that person. I hope I'm wrong, because if it turns out right... I'd rather say it'll never turn right.

But somehow... I hope it's right. Labo. I just wanted to see that person... although I know it wouldn't mean anything anyway.

Lee Dong Wook's just the hottest. But that person's... nevermind. XD

Whee. Corny! XD

New Layout! I so missed Blogger!

New layout!! ^___^

Finally, after a couple of weeks being absent from my blogspot (which felt like forever) it's up with a new layie!! ^_^ I worked hard on this for three days (with breaks since I can only use the computer in the afternoon) and just... fell in love with it. Lol. XD

There are still some problems with this blog. The comments area won't work for the nth time, and the header image came out a little blurry than expected. It's really driving me nuts! I've been working on it eversince I came home this morning and still... x_x If my patience runs out, I'll remove the comments area. x_x I wanted to slice the top image to make it load faster and make it look clearer but I forgot how. T_T

Actually, I'm quite surprised that this new layie came out better from what I expected of my coding capacities. XD This style has been my dream and my very first Midori layout actually looks similar although I didn't have a clue on how to code it back then. Just suddenly, it dawned on me. I'm so proud of it!! XD

Anyway, enough of the blog-craziness. XD The whole day was fine except that I skipped the freshie program awhile ago. XD I needed to, because my eyes needed to be checked, again. x_x The first plan was to go back after the eye check-up for the very first mod exam for History. But fortunately and unfortunately, it was cancelled because Sir DC's sick. x_x We had the Mod exam for Algebra too, and it was easier than the last one Sir Briones gave us. x_x I soooo love quadratic equations! XD

I wanted to update some more about the new stuff going on, and I wanted to post pictures too but unfortunately, the bluetooth is not installed yet. x_x Guess I have to wait for the weekend.

Waiii! I'm just very happy I can't post right anymore! XD ^_^

My Girl

Waii! It has been a very long time eversince I last posted! XD I've been using my LiveJournal for quite awhile because... something came up. x_x

Anyhow, I posted here again to share my new-found video! XD This is one of the sweetest scenes in My Girl! ^_^ I really love that korean romantic comedy and I can't wait for the next scene so I searched for it in You Tube. And finally, I finished all episodes yesterday! ^_^ I want to place the other scenes here but it could serve as spoiler. x_x

And oh, Lee Dong Wook's really hawwwt!! XD I like him more than Lee Jun Ki. XD

Enjoy! ^_^