Bitterness

I do not want to do things related to school anymore... I'm tired and I feel forced. I feel frustrated because I do not have a choice at all. I know that responsibilities should be taken care of, but why does it feel like I'm the only one who should be concerned? I couldn't talk my way out, and I do not want to drop the work just to laze around. If that would make me a lesser person...

It sounds selfish but all I ever want to worry about now are my grades and mine alone... I've done so much and earned so little that I wanted to scream and throw tantrums! I do not know what would keep my Biology grades from sliding down, and what to do to please our horrible Filipino prof... I do not know what to do anymore and people would still have the guts to pour out work on me. I also cannot understand why I'm doing all these work... that wasn't even my idea on the first place. I don't understand why some people even have the right to slack when blogging's my only consolation...

It must have been my fault if I set myself as someone so vulnerable and perhaps, too reliable. I'm neither. I can do stuff, but people should know their limits and understand the situation...

Augh... and what pisses me more is that all I could ever do is blog these things that are raging inside of me. And at the end of the day, it's still me who even have to do the work.