Frustrated.

(another of my senseless posts)

Random # 1 : Happy Birthday Deichan and Pau! *hugs tight*

Random # 2: I recieved my so-called grade for Filipino and almost wanted to die with depression and frustration. I felt like every hope alive faded like it never came... I wanted to ask our prof "Saan ba ko nag kulang?" (one of chezka's lines XD) and throw tantrums. But of course, I can't do that... =/

Random # 3: I know I won't get something high in Math and in Science (ano ba naaaamaaaannnn!!) because... because I'm feeling so lazy that I cannot bring myself to study anymore.

Random # 4: Cried while watching Alice Academy.

Random # 5: I want to shift to... so okay, I'm not sure of the course but I want to shift. Shift... shift... shift...

Random # 6: I've been watching Ai Yori Aoshi about two days ago and I'm hooked! XD I really love the story, kaoru's soooo cute!

Random # 7: I've been working on a new layout despite of the exams. Lol. It may be up this weekend or next week. I want it to look different and came up with this weird color combination. XD

Random # 8: Gustong gusto ko na lumipat ng school !! Dun sa wala ng uniform, dun sa super laki, dun sa kailangan pa ko magdorm, dun sa merong org na alam kong mageenjoy ako (tama na please ang school paper!) dun sa pwede akong magpakulay ng buhok and magpa-pierce ng isa pa (o dalawa), dun sa merong language classes na pwede ko i-enroll ang aking sarili o mag sit-in na lang... in short, dun sa aking dream school kung saan college student ka talaga at hindi college student sa mundo ng highschool. Wahahahaha! (I can picture someone saying: tol! taas natin mangarap!)

Random # 9: Bishounen. LRT. every 7 am. Hotness. =D

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So okay, I'll stop at 9. Even if this post is senseless, I'm going to post it anyway. XD

I really have no right to slack off, but I'm too lazy to even motivate myself by thinking of my almost impossible dreams. I don't know what's happening anymore and I feel like my mind's no longer intact. Maybe I think too much of things, of every thing, but I can't help it. It seems like, if I stand naive for a second, I'll lose it all...

Imagine the pains of seeing a 2.25 on your list of 1's. Just thinking about the sleepless nights spent for that freakin subject just to find out that you don't deserve something high. I was never this grade conscious (come on, I spent highschool doodling on my notebooks) until this year. I don't want to be one anymore but I can't help but expect too much of what I can do. It is so frustrating!

Bakit ganun sila? Ginawa mo na nga yung lahat lahat ng kaya mong gawin pero ganun pa rin yung outcome. Dahil lang sa misconception about the students of this course, lahat na ba ay walang karapatan maka-one? Augh!! Gustong - gusto ko na i-drop yung subject niya, for God's sake! And what makes it more depressing? Filipino yun!! Ammmpppp! Super unreasonable yung prof...

I want to cry out of frustration but I just can't bring myself to do so... T_T I don't really want to flood my blog with endless complaints but I don't know where to burst but here... =(

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Quote(s) for the day:

Prof: Sino siya?
Student: Siya yung anak nung tatay niya.

... labo.

*sigh*